Shauna's Diary

Im in deep.

Can i deal with this?

I'm not so sure

my eyes are full on red now

I have to keep them closed or bb will freak

Its kinda good though, when i open my eyes the world starts spinning

no way am i asking for help

Apparently L's new toy can help when i get back to L.A

Fuck.

two can play at your game bb.
bring it on.

-there being a picture stuck to the page right here-





-it being of bb dressed as a pirate with a scratch on his knee. crying.-

HA.

I found the one shame you had.


Oh and by the way, i still kept something secret

FIFTY DUMBASS.

See if you can crack that code. x

Here i am
Back in L.A

i kinda already miss Bb
I miss Liza too
i feel sorry for her, she doesnt even know what a friend is
I hope bb takes good care of her

I'll be back soon to check up on them

Besides, i still need to meet Lilly!

Well, im all back to normal now
no crazy Crimson left in me

Normal brown eyes
i dont feel like im permenantly caffinated
im not twitchy
the world isnt spinning


Well, so many shoes to design

Must get back to designing them

Gotta love L.A

-Sigh-

I'm so bored of L.A already
i tried Texas, but my flat there is totally trashed and empty

So im in france again
i just adore france

but im still kinda bored

I'de go back to wammys for a visit but bb would think i miss him or something, going back so soon

i can ammuse myself in france anyway

delicious food
amazing shops with gorgeous clothes and shoes
peace and quiet to design shoes
plenty of space to run around Lycan when i get extra bored

But it just doesnt seem as nice without the blood stains and bb jumping off my roof

-sigh- Fml.

all my agents are dead

including the one that i was dating

business is over

Bb is emotionless and hates me

life is over

Dear Bb,

I red your last diary entry ofcourse, if you ever do anything for me ever again make it this

Please please dont hurt Liza, if she's that bad tell her that you're kicking her out of wammys and she has to come live with me.

You know why i didnt stop you from killing Sam?
I froze, you knew my name and that scared me, i was scared bb.

I hope my friend Hikari does bring him back, if she does
you can bet on having no invite to the wedding if it ever happens.

I hope you eventually learn to have emotions
they're not bad as long as you can control them

Please get in touch, even if its just to tell me not to write anymore

From, Shauna

X

To Bb,

Thanks for the advice i guess, but unlike you, i dont plan on turning into a phycopathic criminal.

Of course im covering up my tracks, im not stupid. and yes i would love to meet Lilly, anytime you're free is good

Good luck to you also, and yeah were even now

Congratulations on Amaya and the new baby if there is one, of course i'de love to meet that one too

hoping to speak to you soon, and thankyou for replying

Shauna
x

Alive.

But dead.

Shauna the shinigami?

Damn.

Bb has my deathnote, he took it when i tried to kill him.

So only he can see me.

and he still hates me.

Great...

Wonder if i should even tell him?

Meh.

I might do

Being a shinigami is actually really fun

^^

no one can see me or hear me

yeah, it has its perks

Some other family tried to move into my chatue

So i haunted it till they left

The same with the houses i still own in L.A Texas England Germany and every other country on the planet pretty much

Bb cares

a little bit

not much

just a little

He seemed kinda sad when i died

so

there's hope?

The other shinigami's i've met are actyally really nice

Well

Thats pretty much all thats happened to me.

Hikari keeps trying to convince me to go to wammys to see bb.

Maybe. Maybe not

Well that really is everything.

I finally got to meet Lilly today
I freaked her out a little with my appearance, but then i explained about the Shinigami's and deathnotes to her as we flew to France to get away from the weird puppet guy, imm not sure if Bb wanted her to know that stuff yet, so its a secret between just us.

I wish i had seen her when i was alive

I still act all happy and cheerful like the old Shuna but...

Im dead.
Lets face it, thats kinda a kick in the teeth.

No heartbeat, no pulse

And sure my life is better in some ways

but worse in the others

Like

What do i do now?

¬¬

Lilly is adorable though

Looks like her dad

Bb's an exellent father
she's alive
and not damaged at all

A perfect little child.

And she means a lot to bb.

Ryuk can have his apples, i prefer gummy worms.

They think i killed Niomie?

But...

Niomie was my friend

i didnt kill her.

Despite all the evidence pointing that way.

I Promise

I'm not leaving wammys untill bb belives me.

Nope.

No way.

I needed to get my business going in England anyway.


Thats right wammys.

You're stuck with me.






ENJOY!

For the first time in my life, i have decided

I DONT care.

i DONT care if bb thinks i killed Niomie or not.

I know the truth.

So fuck you bb.

I give up.

I dont care anymore.

And its actually kinda fun.

Maybe i'll finally start living like a shinigami now.


SO.


Bye bye wammys.


Im going back to L.A

Back to my shoes! ^^




Whatever


If anyone cares enough they'll come find me

But they dont, so they wont.

But meh.




Roll with the punches.




I heart L.A! ^^

Well
Its been a while

So much has happened to me!

Eventuall me and Sam did get married, after Hikari brought him back AGAIN.

I havnt been back to wammys because im still so pissed at bb.

I did write to him and tell him about the wedding, but im not sure he even red it.

So yeah, after the wedding and the honeymoon i got back to work.

From the little moments where i am free from all the cool stuff i've been doing getting my business going in England i've watched wammys and a LOT has happened
The rest i heard from Kymisha of course

Kymisha spends half her time watching wammys now, ready to burtally murder anyone who so much as thinks about hurting Ember

She also plans the same for bb if he tells Ember's secret.


Me and Sam are in france at the moment, thats where we spend most of our timr these days.


Designing shoes and planning out where to take the business to next

-Sigh-

I could go on and on about all the exiting crap thats been happening to me recently

But i really have to get back to work.